In trouble

Declan, my third baby, was born November 24 and is six old tomorrow. Six weeks is the standard for returning to excersice after having a baby. I am very excited because I miss my old body, my old energy and my old mental state. Running's number one perk for me is that when I run, I am happier. I know there's some technical scientific reason, like the release of hormones, but I am happier because I can call myself a runner. As a stay at home mom, I have very little that is my own, completely unrealated to my kids. When I run, it's my time. It's my goal. It's my body.
My plan is simple. I start running slowly and biuld back to when I was in peak shape. This was in May 2006 after running my first marathon in Cincinnati. I have signed up for the Indianpolis mini marathon in May and hope to run a marathon in the fall. I figued that I could run three days a week with one or two cross training days. I assumed I would start with three miles and build a mile a week. I'd be in shape for 13.1 miles by May no problem. Then reality hit. First is the problem of who will watch my kids. According to my plan, I need five days! My husband works late, and the gym's day care is so overly pack I am nervous about leaving my baby there. So maybe I should focus on the three running days. My mom, off work for the holidays, offered to watch my kids while I run for the first time. It was not what I exected. I started slow, 11 minute mile, and I went slower, 12 minute mile. And I didn't even finish one mile before I was gasping for air and my legs were cramping. Today, my hamstrings are sore and my abs, ACHE. I am way more out of shape than I thought. Note to anyone who tries to run after having a baby. It may be wise to do some form of excercise while pregnant so you are not starting from scratch. But I have done this before. I ran the 400m in high school, and took a long hiadus for about 10 years before running a marathon. I started at one mile and built up over a year. I was hoping I would have a jump, but I am not utterly discouraged. I will run again tomorrow morning and hope I can at least finish a mile.